I’ve worked hard about not going all English teacher on all of you, my faithful 15 readers, but part of me has wanted to bring a little structure to the blog to keep me writing on at least a weekly basis. Let’s see how this goes. I’d like to bring you a passage from Shakespeare on the weekends that we can talk about. I’ll share what I can, and please feel free to add your comments.
“Not a whit, we defy augury: there’s a special
providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now,
’tis not to come; if it be not to come, it will be
now; if it be not now, yet it will come: the
readiness is all.”
I taught this play for years but always struggled with this passage syntactically. In Act V, Hamlet is about to go into a “friendly” fencing match against Laertes, a man with a grudge, since it was Hamlet who caused his father’s death. Hamlet’s best friend, Horatio, cautions Hamlet to withdraw from the match if he has any misgivings.
Above is Hamlet’s reply. I’ve always interpreted it as kind of an existential statement. “It” seems to be his death. If he is to die now, that just means he won’t be dying in the future (“tis not to come”), but if he isn’t meant to die in the future, he is meant to die now. He reassures us that no matter what, he knows that he will die, like all of us (“if it be not now, yet it will come”). I’m thinking the actor would have to hammer that last WILL. Death is inevitable, “the readiness is all.”
I think about this passage a lot. I admire Hamlet’s resignation to the truth of the moment. I think about mortality often. I can say with some certainty that I won’t see the year 2043. I don’t expect to see 90. Waldron men do pretty well getting into their eighties, so 2038 is certainly reachable. That gives me about 20 more years to do whatever I might want to, to see what I still would like to see. Sounds like a lot, except for when it is your last 20 years, when you’ve already seen 20 years go by three times.
I don’t think of it as being sad or morbid. It just is. As Seth Avett says in his song The Perfect Space:
I wanna grow old without the pain,/Give my body back to the earth and not complain.
My life has been good. I suspect it will continue to be so for a while, but if “the readiness is all” then I’m ready.